Glad it's going so well for you, Femaleboss. I have never been able to moderate my drinking (and heaven knows I tried,) but I certainly wish you all the best at it. I just do not have an off switch when it comes to drink. The idea of 'deserving a drink' does set off alarm bells for me, though. Getting fit has helped me a lot, too....no booze, cycling, Pilates and yoga have all helped me greatly, and I've lost 40 lbs. Thanks to lots of hard work and the help of the good advice, support and people at SR I will have 18 months of sobriety on the 23rd. I don't ever want to feel as if I can drink again, because I know those thoughts are lies and will kill me if I give in to them.