Thank you for your beautiful posts Mizzuno. I've been struggling with the full force of sober grief and recently joined a local mindfulness class. I'm finding it extremely helpful. Now I try to meditate for 10 minutes every day and even though my mind keeps wandering off all over the place, I definitely feel more calm. More accepting of how things are.
I really hope your cat turns up soon. I'm willing him to find his way home.