Originally Posted by
Smarie78 
That's exactly it. Courage. You said the perfect word. This is where I continue to falter. I will build it up and it takes a millisecond for him to say one word or do one thing and I find myself cowering with my tail between my legs trying to make it better (for him). Courage....I have none. Never have when it came to other people.
If this isn't something you have talked about with your therapist, or even if you have, I'd definitely suggest it be explored.
Last fall I went skydiving for the first time. I kept waiting for the fear or anxiety to hit.. it didn't. I actually remember thinking as that tiny, rattley airplane kept getting higher into the sky, "Leaving AXH was the hardest, most painful, and terrifying thing I ever experienced... jumping out of this plane will be a piece of cake compared to that!!!" And it was... because I took that leap I had an amazing experience....and I'm not just talking about the skydiving....