While I've had hundreds/thousands of similar bad, horrible experiences/decisions made while drinking over the years, I have to be honest and say that over the last 2-3 years mainly my drinking has been interminably, soul-suckingly boring. I sit at home alone and drink by myself and just waste hour after hour after hour doing nothing but making plans in my head for all the great, cool things that I'm gonna do with my life. And then instead of doing them, I drink some more and tell myself I'll start all those cool things the next day/week/month. And then I wake up the next day and feel like crap and declare I'm never drinking again. And then in 3 days or a week or 10 days or six months, I drink again. It's an endless, awful, pointless, monotonous grind. And I also know in the back of my mind that once I start drinking, I'm capable of all those horrible, dishonest things that I did for years. It's all out there waiting for me at the bottom of one of those glasses of cheap box wine.
My life is better without alcohol in it. Period.