Weak and pathetic
I am back after a month or so of drinking most nights, I can't seem to stop. I promise myself I won't drink again and then, there I am stopping off to buy the booze. I am so weak and so pathetic. All the horrible things going on in the world and I can't even stop myself from drinking. So tired of myself and this hamster wheel I am on. I feel like running away. I hate myself I really do. I don't really know a life without alcohol, it scares me.