((((((((dear Suze)))))))))
The season you are in is not the season where you will stay. Everything changes, good and bad, and this is no exception.
You have been through such tremendous changes in such a short time, even if it was smooth sailing I would expect there to be some turmoil and growing pains. I can't imagine the life changes you are going through. It might feel impossible but you are going to prevail. Maybe not today or tomorrow, or next week but you will prevail.
You have shown all of us your resilience and perseverance. We know what you are made of even if you forget once in awhile.
I like the quote "when God closes a door, He opens another one, but it is h*ll in the hallway"
Maybe you are in the hallway now, but you are not gonna stay there.
I wish I could give you a real life hug, but, alas, my cyber hugs will have to suffice.
