this was your reply to this question posed to ya:
"Why is this something you find so irresistible?"
Originally Posted by
Smarie78 
I don't at all, hence tonight's fight. I think I've just let it go for so long always feeling it's my fault (like tonight when he said I spoiled the evening). I internalize that and then spend the time where he forgives me or he apologizes for his behavior and then I try to make up for what I take as my fault.
im not the brightest bulb, but sure reads right there some rationalizing why you feel he isnt irresistible. a fight and no sex makes him irrestible,
yet you allowed this man into your house and you made dinner for him and then slept with him. after EVERYTHING thats gone on over the years.
if it isnt something like irresistable, what is it?
i mean, other than insane.
smarie, arent you tired of going around the same mountain?
it seems likes its been a few years youve been going around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around and around
the same mountain.
i found it amazing that when i got me some courgae and just went over the mountain, the mountain was in my rear view mirror and i felt better.. had me some aches and pains for a while, but they healed.