Wow, Suze!
Rereading that, it sounded like I was saying that all your problems are a direct result of the mountains and mountains of inner crap you have!
You're no more full of crap than anyone else--but we've all got it!
I am praying for God's will to be done and for him to be glorified in this terrible circumstance.
Please forgive me for the perception of kicking you while you're down!
Sometimes I phrase things in the most tactless possible way.
Good luck Friday.