Originally Posted by
Sephra 
I'm so sorry. I get it. I really do. Sometimes I think thats the worst part of it, being treated and made to feel like you are a fool. But, Dee, You're not. YOU are the normal one here, he is the one out of whack. What he did is NOT Fair or right. Period. I know you're spinning right now. Take a breath. You are better than sinking down to his level. What he did IS unexusable, awful. But its from HIS lack of worth, NOT yours. YOU are the one with your head on right, and even though you just got smacked a good one, you WILL find your footing again. None if it is your fault, what, You believed? You trusted? There are trustworthy people out there, he's just not one of them. sorry. you are not alone, and you are NOT a fool. He just "thought" you were.
I just truly don't get it. I know he's messed up. But my god. I didn't think he was "that" guy. No, that's not true...had I not been worrying about it, I wouldn't have ever read his journal.
I don't know...I think I just want to be single for the rest of my life right now. I cannot believe that the "nice guy" has caused me more pain than my emotionally abusive first husband did. That blows my mind.