I felt the same way you do Coco, I think all of us here did. Like Least said, I wasn't really having "fun" when I was drinking. I was just numbing my feelings for a few hrs, only to wake up and feel like crap the next day. What kind of life is that?
While it's hard in the beginning, it DOES get better and once you begin to feel life again, you'll wonder why you ever drank in the first place. Enjoy your children, enjoy feeling 100% every day, enjoy doing activities that you pushed aside once drinking became your main hobby, enjoy LIFE!