I refuse to sleep with my husband right now because of the signals it could possibly give him that would say, she loves me and everything is good. She'll be back. The things I've done to her are ok because she did just sleep with me. And now I can have her anytime that I want!
He's sober right now. But his actions over the last several years have been horrible and even though we are moving very slowly, sex with him would derail everything I've put into motion to try and see if he can get his life together without me in his way. I believe right now for me, that sex would mess up his head to much to get to the end point.
Yesterday, he was trying to touch me. I took my index finger and circled my va-j-j and I told him, This is mine! I don't have to give it to you because you don't deserve it! You do not get rewarded for bad behavior.
Don't feel bad. Sh!t happens. Don't dwell on it. Just move on.