Welcome back Eshgham
Drinking ******** me (in the true sense of that word ). I never progressed emotionally, my self analysis skills stayed undeveloped and my capacity for change was permanently diminished so long as I drank.
Getting sober and staying that way didn't solve all my problems, but it gave me a level emotional field from which to do so.
I learned who I was, I gained an appreciation of who I was and I worked out 'what I wanted to be as a grown up' while in recovery.
I could never do that as a drinker
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