Beginning of day 2
I actually got up and went to the gym. I did about 25 minutes and a little over a mile on the treadmill. It felt good to do something healthy that I've wanted to do for a while.
My goal right now is to stay sober, get in better shape physically and mentally and most importantly develop a plan on what to do when a strong desire to drink pops up.
I must admit I'm feeling a bit of anxiety this morning. Trying to push through without the help of Ativan. If it gets too bad I will take 1/2 of one. I don't want to use it as a crutch. I need to deal with feelings head on. The anxiety is caused by my lack of motivation the last couple of months. Work is a little behind but I know I can get it caught up if I focus and work hard.
Today will be another successful sober day.
Thank you all for your support.