Hi Jay, towards the end of my drinking days I had more and more blackouts. I think after a blackout your brain goes into overdrive trying to fill the gaps. And it doesn't fill the gaps with rainbows and butterflies because this is alcohol we're talking about. It's a depressant. Like others have said, try not to worry too much. The reality was never as bad as anything conjured up by my hungover imagination.
Just try to learn from it. Remember this anxiety you're experiencing now and visualise a life when you never have to experience that anxiety again. Good luck
