Thanks for the message!
I'm so alone in this, my family are continents away. Have 2 grilfriends that I've told about this, but basically I have to cope alone.
I've read a lot of other posts and nowherr is there a success story... something to say this will work out, keep supporting him and all will be well.
I think the hardest thing is that I've realised that it will never be allright. You have to accept that you will live in this constant fear and stress or you have to make a break.
I need to take care of myself and my kids, I need to find a job and my own home... and that scares me! I can't go back to south africa ... my kids are doing their last years in school and there is no future for them there. Or I can risk it because my family is there.
Just sooo confused and sad today.