Hi Thebboxer, good to meet you.
For me, I stopped drinking by taking it one day at a time. One hour at a time in the early days. Even one minute at a time.
I spent a long time reading threads on this site. Knowing that I'm not alone has been incredibly empowering for me.
I read your post and I felt your pain. I know exactly how you feel because I spent many years feeling the exact same way. I now know that it can get better and it will. Accept that you don't drink anymore and take it from there. One day at a time. Stay close to this site. You will get fantastic practical advice and incredible support.