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I used to work out and get out and do things before I moved out here to be with him 8 years ago now. I was on a volleyball league with my friends, went for a lot of walks and bike rides, kept my house spotless. Now I don't play volleyball, I don't have a bike anymore so no bike rides. I go for walks, but usually when he's not around because then I get some kind of sarcastic "Oh that sounds thrilling" or "Wow you must be bored". I am always cleaning the house now because of 4 cats and him and it's never really "clean". I've gained about 25 lbs since I've been out here because I just never do anything. I just started volunteering at an animal sanctuary last weekend and will probably go every other weekend because it's kind of a haul to get there, but even already he's being smarmy with me saying "If you aren't cleaning then you are watching tv or volunteering". Like volunteering is a bad thing now when he was all on board a few weeks ago. Well I go out and do anything on my own I get the sarcastic "Oh fine go out and just leave me here doing my own thing. No go have fun and don't think about me". But when I do ask him to do something he goes "Oh that sounds like a lot of work. I just want to sit here and play my video game and take a nap."

It's like I'm almost afraid to do anything because he's going to knock it or ask why he can't come. He keeps saying I need to get a hobby but he makes fun of everything I do, what I read, what I watch, the music I listen to. I should read sci-fi like him instead of mysteries, listen to punk rock like him instead of country and pop, watch sci fi and action movies like him instead of dramas and indies.