Thank you all. No, I know that he is completely spiraling out of control and that he isn't good for me or my kids.
I know when I miss him I miss the man he used to be.
I am allergic to cats and dogs bit much more to cats. Maybe I will get a dog.
I just wanna fast forward thru this. It is much harder than I imagined to let go of him. I really feel addicted to him.