I am really bad at being able to mediate on my own. I need spomeone at least to verbally guide me. Sometimes I find a good video on YouTube to lead my meditation. I get so much out of a good session, but my mind just flakes out. I wonder if it's my ADHD. It might be related to the fact I am not suggestable.
Years ago I had a psychiatrist I trusted with my life. He was part Freudan, part Jungian and mixed in some CBT. (This was back in the 80s when I was a teen.) I asked him if he would hypnotize me. He had me follow his finger and a couple other neurological type tests and said I'm one of the few that could not be hypnotized. To this day I wonder if my brain would just fight him or what it was that he saw.