I agree that if you were still drinking Amp, your business would be lost in a short time. It is a little bit of a kick in the pants that you got sobered up and reconfigured your business model, only to struggle financially. I think it's important to remember that the two are not related. My alcoholic brain would have thought the opposite, and said screw it.
Like you mentioned a few days back, the pink cloud stage of sobriety is long over. What we are dealing with is simply life, with all its warts. At least we are living it without our hands tied behind our backs.