please, tealily, talk about yourself
Your story is helping others, those still lurking, new posters and old posters alike, we all benefit from each others stories.
I will just speak to a couple of points, if your husband is a normal drinker and has offered to stop or, at least, not have wine in the house, take him up on it. At some point, we have to live in a world where alcohol abounds but if you can have some space in the beginning, why not take it?
Also, I am glad you are not mixing alcohol and an antidepressant. I started on an AD about a year into my sobriety. It was the right decision for me. Maybe it is time for you to revisit this with your doctor.
I am glad you are here