Hi TL
Glad you posted here, I was the same . Lurking for a while and comparing myself to people who were "worse" than me. I was never a sloppy drunk and always functioning. But I can relate to the secret drinking and hiding the glass while my husband was around. I didn't have my first drink till I was 25 and it was only occasionally. A lot of your story rings true with me.
I hope being here helps and I wish you good luck and positive energy.
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