Hi Tealily, good to meet you.
Wine was my preferred poison too. I loved it, really loved it. Couldn't imagine a world without it. Panicked if I was running out and didn't have a bottle or three hidden around the house. And at the rate I drank, I was always running out and having to replenish my secret stock. So much of your post I can relate to.... The secret night time drinking, the plastic glasses poured secretly in the garage, hiding the empties. Yep, I did all that. So that's why when I tell you it is possible to stop, I hope you believe me. I haven't drunk any alcohol for almost 7 months now and not only is it possible to live without wine, life slowly becomes rather awesome.
My advice would be to use this site a lot. As soon as you feel like pouring a glass of wine, post here instead. Break the habits you've created around wine. Join the monthly class, visualise your life without wine and stay positive. You can do this