"Why do we sandbag? Have you done it?"
yup, i did it. when i crossed the line into full blown alcoholism, i lost the power of choice in how much i drank. depending on the crowd i was a round if i was out, id only have a couple and just like Desertdawg- hit the store on the way home.
there were times when i did that it was as simple as i didnt want others to see how bad the problem was. deep down in i was ashamed of it, yet couldnt stop it, but didnt want others to know or see.
then there were other times- times at the bar with friends and rounds of drinks would be bought by each of us. welp, i was a self centered little ***** and didnt want to go buying a round. i wanted to use that money to buy my own alcohol.