Hey pal,
Your user name has me thinking. A six string nut, like the string nut on a guitar. That tiny little piece of bone can withstand and adapt to so much pressure, so much movement, so much change, so much constant vibration. And without it, the guitar is just a hunk of wood and strings. If a little piece of carved bone can handle that, think of what we can handle as sober humans. And just as the string nut makes beautiful music possible, think of what we can create when we are sober and committed to our purpose.
I understand all too well how tough finding that last day 1 can be. But it can be done. I know that there are so many of us here who would say the same thing. And sobriety is only impossible if you keep drinking. Can you put down the bottle for today? If so, then you can do it for tomorrow as well. If not, what do you need to put that bottle down? If you need help, it's there. You just need to reach out.