((DZ)), you are such a sweet person and it really shows how hard that you are working on a sober life - believe me - THAT PROJECTS FROM YOU.
As far as what path to take - I can only offer what mine is delivering from rigorous honesty. I never need to remember what I might have told someone...it just is what's up. While the truth carries consequences from a checkered past - it never has to happen again.
I think I remember reading that you were a young woman. You have many bright tomorrows. I only started my recovery path at 60 yo - while not sad about that - just grateful I've been given this freedom.
You are a shining star, young lady - keep on keepin on and yes, it will all work out. Look for some HP signs....the're there when we need them.
Oh my - I need to dash - - - - hope this made some sense???