first off congrats on your way to recovery. I'm fairly new at this and I feel the first obstacles to overcome is admitting you are an addict.I had always known I had a problem,but it was always harder trying to hide my problem from everyone else. The only reason, I feel, I am in a program and going to meetings regularly is because I admitted to my employer I had a problem and I knew I could not do it on my own. I needed help!
Opening up to your loved ones will be hurtfull and painful,I'm sure, but it will possibly open new doors up for you and help set you free. They say isolation is not good. Get to an NA meeting and get support!
It was hard for me to get myself to one.But after that first time,it's become a daily thing and I wish I could get to more!
But i wish you the best and keep posting, tell us how your doing!
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