Morning
Okay I'm going to get this out before I chicken out. I drank last night. And I am talking in fine fashion. I feel like an absolute bag of crap this morning but I am grateful at least for the reminder that this is not what I want or who I am anymore. For all of you struggling please hear me when I tell you how quickly the anxiety, the nausea, the shakes and the self-loathing come back. It's not a "I can do this today and just get back on the sobriety train tomorrow" The consequences don't take a breather. And yes, they still suck.
Anyways back to work today with the brain fog to end all brain fogs. Should and wil be a long day.
If you need help - put your hand up....we don't need to do this alone. Lesson learned.