Nion this can and will get better if you are ready to start making changes.
When I first got serious about quitting, I started off looking online for a lot of help which first brought me to SR.
After a couple years of failed attempts on my own, I realized I needed more help in real time.
I too, at my lowest suffered from absolutely crippling social anxiety. I was terrified to leave my house, paranoid of running into anyone I knew, couldn't look anyone in the eye.. I had to be escorted into the dr's office by my addictions counselor because I shook so bad and was having a panic attack a half an hour down the road from the clinic.
It sucks. I know. I also know, with some self-kindness and the willingness to do the work it will get better.
Reach out to anyone you can and don't be afraid. There are so many resources out there with kind people ready to help. You are not alone in this, you do not have to go through this alone.
There are so many great resources on SR if you read around the site. This is a great community to be a part of. Glad you're here
