I NEVER thought I could get sober. It took me being completely emotionally bankrupt to put the bottle down. It was the hardest thing I ever did. I didn't believe in myself. Not one bit. but I had sober folks around me who welcomed me into the fold and told me "Believe that I believe" and loved me to wellness. Sobriety is amazing. It is not easy but it is totally worth it. I had great luck with AA so that is what I recommend to others. You won't like all the meetings. You won't like all the people. But if yous tick around, miracles will happen in your life. I'm glad you're here and I believe in you. This is worth it. Hugs to you.