I came back because...
Everything I did when I stayed in the home with AH never worked. The threats, bargains, deals, coping... It was never enough until I left. Even the last chance in March when I had an apartment and ready to move wasn't enough. But this last time on April 25th, when he called me a POS and told me to f off and I did, he got sober. Took him a week to get there but I'm still gone and he's still sober.
I'm giving it a year away. If he can not stay sober, we'll be divorcing and it'll be over and he knows it. He's got to hit his one year walk alone before we can think about us. It's the only thing I have never truly embraced. He wants trust where there has never really been any. The ball is in his court and I'm watching.