Sorry to hear that Sugar. PM me if you want. It does take a little time to get your head on straight. You were doing good you just made some bad decisions. Early sobriety sucks at times, but if you look back at some of your posts (like when you hit 30 days clean) you can see there was hope. I know it is easy to romanticize using when you are feeling down, but is using really going to fix things? You can look back at your posts on that too. It really is a dead end and maybe it worked at one time, but those days are long gone.
I hope you can reach back out for support and what was working. We are here and do care!!!