Hi Saint,
I can speak from 30 years of experience in self medicating.....
Eventually it leads to horrible despair, drinking/drugging alone, possible DUI's, loss of family, friends, jobs, relationships, self worth, pride, sanity.
I can truly say that I wish I had found my own inner strength and sobriety long ago....I hope you choose to live a happy life, and begin to realize exactly what booze/drugs equal=pain
I wish you well
