Originally Posted by
Ann 
I went through overdose 3 times with my son, twice he almost died. All happened at home and I began to feel it was almost like he knew I would save him or get help in time. The thing is, it made me even more determined to get him out of the house...he could choose recovery or he could choose to continue to use, but I was not prepared for his life to be in my hands because I am not God and 3 times was enough
Yes! Thank you, that is exactly how I feel! It's as if he no longer needs to be afraid of getting laced drugs because if something goes wrong he'll be saved in time... Now the fear is mine alone. It's simply too much pressure to be his safety net. He said the second time that the worst part is seeing what it's done to me, that he felt nothing, like he was waking up from a nap...that's terrifying, that there's no personal consequences for someone overdosing, it's not a traumatizing experience for them, just us.