Horrible trauma for you. I use prayer to ask that all bad memories be removed and it has helped me - also, EFT (you can go to YouTube and put in "trauma and eft" and a bunch of videos will come up). I personally like Brad Yates, because he speaks slowly and I can tap along easily with his vids - but there are many others, as well - and that will help.
I couldn't live like that anymore, but that is just me.
My home is my sanctuary - I don't want any people who don't respect their lives or mine in my environment.
Good luck