I love that you say it how it is. You've all said something really important to me. Thank you.
I went (late) to meeting. It was so calm. People with years of sobriety and people with little time. Lots of silence. Found I was happy there with a bunch of strangers, all types of people. Imagine that party now. Complete opposite. I'm glad I'm not there.
I have a big book and homework on dr's opinion before bed plus things I'm grateful for. Going to bed sober.
Dog deeply and peacefully asleep across my lap as I type.