Originally Posted by
Weev1l 
I would like to be a lean, clean, yoga machine.
But apparently I think I can be that and have two bottles of wine and I am trying desperately to find a way to combine both. I am so happy I didn't buy any more this morning. I desperately want to be feeling better but I desperately don't want to feels pain or sad or anything.
I rang sponsor who's not in. Agony picking up the phone.
Would like to commit to meeting tonight but feel trapped by friends, can't say no to them. Aaaaahhhhhh
You are so right about being an active alcoholic and having a difficult time staying lean. I am very concerned about staying thin, and so when I relapse, I gain about 5 pounds in a week! Getting on the scale and seeing this is a huge motivation to stop now before too much weight damage will be done. Staying sober allows me the luxury of being the weight I want to be.