Hi Amanda,
I'm sorry you drank, I have learns from expereince that any difficult situation can be made even more difficult when you add alcohol.
I'm currently home visiting my mom because she has some pretty serious health issues. I chose to move 3000 miles away because I fell in love, and I used to become sad because she wouldn't come out to visit me. Over the years I have reflected on the fact that it was my choice to move far away and we have had an excellent phone relationship, and I always come to see her with my kids. There is the chance I may lose my mom sooner than I would like, and it makes me very sad, and also makes me appreciate the time I have with her. Life is short, maybe you can find a way to accept her for who she is, and enjoy that part of your relationship.