I am a mess
Literally a mess. Kids are at Exes Nannas for the weekend and I have gone mad. I have sent my mum a text telling her all about her shortfalls ( which she needs to hear) of course. My therapist told me my mum will never change unless she has a heavy instrument to her head or finds god! So I should accept her. I can't, she is a conundrum to me. All she does is moan when she has so much and she tells me and my sister that she is the black sheep of the family. She doesn't bother with her grandchildren and I literally hate her for it. Maybe i should make more of an effort , I don't know anymore. So am gonna be back on Day 1, sat and drank, wallowed and felt sorry for me as usual. Missing my dad so much and wish I knew what was there once we are gone-want to make sure I can meet up with him