Originally Posted by
Mountainmanbob 
It's understandable that you don't trust him. Sad because relationships must be built on trust or it seems that in time love will be lost.
M-Bob
I think that's the saddest thing right now. I've grown cold. I think I'm more excited about the idea of getting my own place than I am about him recovering. I wouldn't have dreamed that I'd be feeling that way now. This past weekend changed me. I actually felt it happen. One second I'm me and the next second I'm an ice cube with the Great Wall of China around my heart. The lack of trust has eroded the love fast. Either that or I've buried it for now because loving him hurts entirely too much at the moment.