MIR- complete respect to you. Words do not describe grief. You are a brave, strong person. Nothing I could word craft could describe that sort of pain. I tasted that fear and loss of control- once when my son was born. That was crap. Compassion and empathy to you.
And, although I never pray for me- I will do so for you- your family and your daughter.
Thankyou for sharing such an intimate event in your life.