Ugh I am so sorry. Lots of body blows indeed.
Similar story - so I can relate to your pain (although in my case OW was older than me and an unemployed addict)
I felt like no one would ever want me either and I am 14 years younger than XAH. Age is not a factor. XAH likes to add insult to injury; he spent hours early on post divorce explaining to me why no one would ever want me. Reasons ranged from being psychotic to being bad in bed and not affectionate.
Fast track to today (1 year later)
I currently have not one but two "interests" - one I just met, and second one appears to be trying to bust out of friend zone. I could be wrong but I sure am having fun. Both are 5 -7 years my junior. So on one end there is a surly whiny XAH who explains how undesirable I am every chance he gets to take a stab at me, on the other hand there are two handsome younger men who buy me lunches, coffees, hopefully dinners soon.
There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I thank universe every day for allowing XAH to finally to show me his true colors. Never look back anymore.
You will get through this. Life well lived is a best revenge.
Hugs to you
