I'm glad you made it back, Lola.
When my mother died it was hard for me to feel anything other than anger and relief. I get it. You still get a hug from me, though.
Family is a huge stressor for some of us, so I also get how you feel about your sister right now. I don't have any family left other than distant cousins. It is what it is, right? This will all recede into white noise with some time.
Your alcohol addiction would like nothing better than to take you down, but you sound stronger than the addiction.
Hang with us, you were able to quit last time with relative ease. You can get right back at it.