I know LOADS of drunks like you. TONS. I have a good friend who could go months without a drink, and then she'd drink and drive and be arrested for child endangerment and land herself in detox OVER AND OVER again. She is not convinced she's alcoholic because she can give it up for months at a time and be fine. She now has an attorney involved in the care of her children. Don't be like her. Stop now.