Dandylion, I understand that. It's just that sometimes I wonder how he could do this with the dogs. He loved them and would constantly keep saying that they are the reason he is able to stay sane(whatever that meant). He has not asked ONCE about them. It hurts me so deeply. I miss him a lot even after all that's happened. If I don't see him on office IM, I imagine all kinds of things. Why can't I really understand that he doesn't give a crap about me or the dogs? How is it easy for him to maintain no contact even if he is drinking? He called when few times before April and been a month of radio silence. My birthday is this Sunday and my mind wanders to the things we did last year when I turned 30
I am all alone and everything hurts.