Big Hugs Lola...a similar thing happened to me, almost 6 months ago now. I am still on a rollercoaster of emotions at times but when I am up I realise how lucky I am to not be living with a relapsing/drinking AH anymore. He is off partying and pretending he is single - which hopefully he will be this Summer.
Life is still difficult at times emotionally and financially but my daughters are happier and I feel more in control of my life than I have done for a long time.
Be gentle with yourself. Try to enjoy the freedom from worrying about the A.
It will get better with time