Dear Rainy AZ,
I am the last person to tell you how to stay sober. I am in almost the exact situation, and I am in Phoenix too
However, I lost my teenage children long ago, due to my drinking. I am now starting to see my 30 year old son and grandchildren. My 29 year old daughter still won't see me.
Don't make the same mistake that I did...quit now and save your future.
Drinking has taken everything, but my life. And it will gladly take that, if I let it.