((Savana)). It hurts so so so bad I know. The thing is I think we all tend to look at the good points which outshine the hard things. When you are remembering him I bet you (like me) remember all the good things, all the happy things and when you are somewhere wish he was around to share them - you imagine him doing this/saying that when really how it would be is nothing like it. I am thinking of exAB and all the good times, NOTthe nights when he didnt come home, him landing in trouble/hospital, the nights I cried myself to sleep. Not what I want.
A friend said to me "its not what it was,its not what it could be but it is how it is."
God has other plans for you. You will be happy.