Originally Posted by
Givingup54 
I in no way blame my husband.
I kinda do.
Not for your drinking, but for not making an effort to help you by not drinking in front of you and not keeping alcohol in the house. If he has a drinking problem of his own, well, that makes things harder, but now you both have pretty solid evidence for that. Could not speaking up about it and asking him to help you be a passive subconscious plan to relapse?