They don't tell you when they'll leave. They don't tell you why. They just leave. And the pieces of your heart are scattered in all the places that you've been together.
As it’s been pointed out to you, he didn’t break up with you, you kicked him out and he stopped the cycle of come here go away typical toxic relationship with an alcoholic.
You are not the VICTIM you are the survivor wanting to play the role of victim. I hope you are continuing with therapy and taking your meds. Good days/bad days keep trying to tip the scale in the direction of good days.....
Congratulations on becoming an Aunt again!!!!